The Good, the Bad, and the Funny
Wow. When I came back and saw how many comments I had, I was just overwhelmed. Thanks for that, you guys. I thought I'd summarize the past few days, in that order.
*Coming back from Dulles last night, I was at the very back of the plane; I could see everything- the lights on the ground, and vast black stretches without any. And as we came into the city, the change from darkness into light. Sometimes, all I could see was darkness and the clouds rolling by. It was all so beautiful. And peaceful, somehow.
*I wasn't able to fly out until Sunday, so I went to work on Saturday. They kept asking me if I wanted to be there, but I said I'd rather be there than at home crying. I don't really cry normally, but I was kind of a wreck Saturday. But everyone was so supportive of me and I think it was the best thing I could have done. I had obligations while I was gone, but they just said not to worry about it. I make fun of those guys a lot, but they were there for me and I do love 'em. So Kristy R, Christy W, Crystal, Adele, Aimee, Kelly, and especially Jen, Candis, and Harmony- if I ever let y'all read this, thanks. For everything.
*I know where Kevin is, and I know that he is safe and happy and he isn't sick anymore. He is with God, and Kathy (his mom) doesn't have to worry about him anymore. He's in heaven, with his Meemaw, where nothing can ever hurt him again.
*I think all his loved ones agree, they want Kevin to still be here. The rest of us have to bear the pain of losing him and not seeing him again, at least for a long time. There was so much more he wanted to do with his life that's never going to happen.
*I hated not knowing what to say to Kathy, James, and Alisa, his immediate family. I mean, what can you say? There really isn't anything that will take away the pain. The best I could offer was that people all over the world were praying for her- thanks for that, guys.
*The return to normal life is going to be so difficult. Alisa, my cousin and his sister, is in her senior year of high school. It should be a happy time for her, but with everything going on for the past two years, I think she's had a really hard time. I just hope that, as difficult as the return to life is going to be, that I can somehow help them out, because really, their life can never be normal again.
And the funny:
*On Ash Wednesday, as Kevin was passing, the chaplain was talking to Kathy. She told her not to be surprised if Kevin sent her a sign, like one woman who loved butterflies, and her family saw a huge cloud of butterflies. Kathy replied, "We're in trouble then, because Kevin loved chimpanzees. And I'm going to come home and find a chimpanzee hanging out in my tree!" Laughter in the midst of tears.